Wednesday, February 15, 2012
I just put Sophie down for her nap. She was so sleepy and fighting it and me and then she finally just laid there and cried. I did what I normally do...picked her up, rocked her and sang to her. She finally settled down and fell asleep. As she laid there, I couldn't leave her side...I just kept looking at her. Amazed by the fact that she is with me and so very thankful that I get to stay home with her. And then I thought about her life before us. How many times had she gone to sleep with no one to rub her face? How many times had she gone to bed hungry and not understood why? How many times had she woke up and cried out and there be no one there? Those thoughts are almost more than I can bear! I don't ever want her to feel alone again. Ever. But I'll not be able to be by her side every minute. Oh how I wish I could. As I type this I have the video monitor on still keeping my eye on her. My intentions are pure but there is no way I can be with her 24/7. There is One who is though. Our Comfort, our Friend, our Savior. When I'm not there, He is. As I got ready to leave her room, I noticed a tear fall gently from her sleeping eye. I broke. I cried as I kissed the tear away...I whispered, "I love you," and as I sat back down and cried some more by her bedside, I felt Him gently wipe my tears away as only He can do. My Comfort, my Friend, my Savior.