Sunday, March 20, 2011
I've been reading Melanie's blog again. Dexter and Melanie are related to Libby, a sweet friend of ours. She told me about their blog last year when we were just getting started with the paperchase. I read her blog over and over, comparing our time line with theirs, and then when they went to China to get their daughter, it was like I was with them. It's such an encouraging, beautiful story to me of God's faithfulness. Dex and Melanie were matched last year in March. As you all know, the shared list comes out Monday. I'm sitting here reading, drinking my cup of coffee and I'm starting to get this strange feeling. I really don't know how to describe it. It's not panic, but it kind of feels like it. We are so close to being matched! And once we are, we'll be waiting another 3-6 months before we travel. So if we are not matched this month, there's lots more waiting involved and I so wanted her to be with us before Christmas. Yeh, maybe it is panic. I don't know. But as I was reading Melanie's blog, it occurred to me that life keeps going. There are wonderful things happening all around me, and I don't want to be so caught up in the what ifs that I miss what is right now! I pray that God will help me to embrace each day and enjoy it for what it is. If we are not matched Monday night, life will still move forward. And there will be next month. My prayer is that I will trust Him through all of this, and that the disappointment will not linger too long if this is not our month. This is why I never did like roller coasters. Too many ups and downs.