Wednesday, March 9, 2011
I delight in a lot of things. My family and friends, hot wings, Disney World, Christmas, music...I could go on and on. As I was talking to God this morning, I thanked Him for everything He has done for me. I am blessed beyond what I deserve, Reader. As I was sitting there, God reminded me of the Bible verse I learned a long time ago, 'delight yourself in Him and He will give you the desires of your heart.' For as long as I can remember I have strived to do just that. To delight in Him. To revel in His love, to talk to Him like He is right here with me (because He truly is...I just can't see Him), and to just go crazy over Him. He is, after all, the Love of my life. So, as I was sitting there, remembering the things in my past, going over the good and the bad...I asked God, 'why is it, if I truly did delight in you, that I've gone through some pretty hard stuff?' And here is what I felt Him say...'sometimes you don't even know the true desires of your heart.' An 'A Ha' moment! Of course, He was right. Reader, there's a lot of junk inside of me. I'm (and you are too) the sum total of everything I have ever seen, felt, touched, learned, experienced, etc. That is who I am. And to say I've been influenced by what the world calls success would be an understatement. But God, He sees deep within the recesses of of my heart. He knows what I truly want and desire, even though I may not have a clue! It all boils down to something James Neal said Sunday night during his sermon. I have to decide to love Jesus more than what I want. Because the heart can deceive us if we are not careful. I settled in my heart Sunday night to love Jesus more than any of my wants and desires. That wasn't an easy thing to say, but I surrendered. I have recklessly abandoned all to Him. It's the way it should be...and Reader, it is a delightfully delicious place to be at this point in my life. I hope you'll join me!